what?!?!?!?

My mom is so hilarious....
First she wants me to lose weight and glad i did some and now then is mad at the way i lose weight.. and now that she finally realized that its the only way i could really lose weight right now she is letting me do it???? WHAT??? im sooooo frustrated!!!! I could have been 175lbs right now but nooooooo my mom had to rebel against the lemonade diet...
Why wont YOU lose 50 lbs MOM!!!!????
....UGH....
So sadly, i can't give you a review on the lemonade diet... but i can say that it does work... It works the best when you exercise with and when you dilute the juice so you can something to sip on all day.....
Im soooo behind schedule!!!! i have less than 16days till my birthday and no where near 170 :(
Ill try to do the lemonade diet for 10 days! it is said that you can lose 20 lbs on it :D

Hope all is well,
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Going back

SO, i lost a good 12lbs and i've kept it off :) plus i look skinnier!
Im going back on the lemonade diet for the next 5 days [mon.-fri.] and then me and my friend are going on the 3 day diet [saturday, sunday, monday]... and hopefully ill at least lose 15 pounds from it all :)
I've been so busy with school and work and stuff that i barely get to eat, and sometimes dont feel like eating... which is good... Thats why i really like the lemonade diet... it makes you really watch what you want and your satisfaction level is lower once off so you can keep going on not eating much at all :)
Im excited!!!!
My birthday is coming up too on the 19th of Feb. and i have to at least be 168lbs...

love ya all!
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BW 2

Buckwheat diet day 2 is on the rise and i feel pretty good still :) I weighed myself really quickly this morning and it said i was 186ish :) Thats just fabulous! This thing is really working! Plus its not that hard to do. Having only to eat 2 things and restricting both to just 2 cups each, its very low in calories and again more means to lose weight! This diet is supposed to help lose 4-10kg in a week or two, which is really cool too. But the sad part is you can do it once a month :( I wonder why cant i do it every other week for two weeks? we'll see i guess.

I was at the gym last night and every Sunday, Monday, and Thursday (sometimes on Saturdays too) I see this cute guy who works at the front desk :P And I'd just talk to him and stuff and just yesterday he finally started a conversation :D which is nice cuz you don't want to be the only one trying to strike up a conversation! ... though i know nothing is going to happen between us, He's really cool guy to talk to and a good practice to feel comfortable again around guys :)


Well, handsome-man still hasn't returned a message on FB, but that's okay... I don't really look like myself on the photo anyway... besides he's barely on there anyways,... he's a busy man,... trying to become a doctor, he has a long way to go on his education, he doesn't need a girl right now to take him off his focus.

I hope that with this BW diet I'll be 175 by Sunday... So i can finally fit into my clothes again! lol

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Buckwheat diet day 1

Well i just started today, and its not that bad. I can eat buckwheat all day and buttermilk (only 1 liter). I hope this will work. It should work, i don't know what else to do. I cant fast, i cant make myself stay at the gym, i love sweets, and stuff like that. So i was thinking for this diet, Ill be on buckwheat and kefir for 2 weeks, then 2 weeks without kefir, and then two weeks on cuz i've been reading up on the diet (barely any info out there), And it is said that with the kefir it makes you rapidly lose weight... I dont want to get into a plateau or anything so i'll try it this way. Besides it was only intended to be for 2 weeks... I know a girl who was on it for more than a month!!!

I went to bed really late last night and before i went to sleep i checked my facebook one last time. And finally he added me. It was a bit odd because i wonder why he added so late at night as well, and then I find that he is like 24 going on 25 years of age and knowing that his church don't really wear wedding rings, it makes me wonder if he is married or not. FYI the Slavic community marries really early. So im just sitting there thinking... looking around his profile... Some things aren't adding up... The display name really isn't his name, barely goes on his facebook at all, the email that is displayed is even more screwed up (has a name but not his name), and things like that.... is someone impersonating him? I dont know.... Its just all too weird for me right now... I wonder if he is going to reply to my message i sent.. only the really Handsome-man can answer it, so we'll see what happens.

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confessions

Well i admit that i got a bit angry yesterday.... I was angry at the fact that i wasn't losing any weight the second time i did the diet and i was mad that i wasted all that food... I should have waited till my body was comfortable at 185 before i started again... i should have waited till by bowels started moving normally... ugh so i went on a rampage... i ate 2 cups of vanilla/chocolate chip/cookie dough icecream, coffee, lemon/cherry cheesecake, 2 string cheese... i was so mad... Im still mad a little right now... but i've noticed my belly isn't as flabby so at least its changing and tightening. I went out with my friends yesterday for a bible study thing and i noticed that i was the largest one. Fattest one. I felt so disgusting. I once thought that i was pretty and cute but now i see myself as some girl that no one really cares for. sigh... Im off the diet for 4 days... ill give myself four days till i really get overboard and comfortable with food.
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End of 3 day diet

Im sooooo happy! I lost 11 lbs! This is sooo amazing!

I always had this diet on my mind for a very long time, but i never thought it would work, but it did! So im 184 :) such a huge jump from 195! I totally recommend this diet to anyone who is overweight and obese, it works wonders, better than a diet pill! I cant wait till my three days 'off' the diet will be over so i can do it again and be 175 :D then i can actually where clothes again cuz i ballooned out of them by being 195 for a very long time... and even to get to 165 would be a dream come true! ... I hope i can go really far with this diet... i really do... in the mean time, i am eating less of course and im looking at calories and taking advice to what i did last year to get to 170lbs... Im so glad i kept a diet journal!

Im going to a group thing tomoro and i might see Handsome-man :) i wonder if he'll recognize my thinner self :P i doubt it a little but i cant wait for him to see a transformed me... even when ill be 165... I know what church he goes to, and my mom has wanted to go for a while cuz she was invited by a friend. Cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait!!!!!

Food Plan for off diet (1)

• Breakfast: Coffee (w/milk and Splenda), 2 light laughing cow cheese wedges.
• Lunch: 1 packet of instant Miso soup, 2 cups of cantaloupe.
• Dinner: 2 slices of meat, 1/2 cup string beans, 1/2 banana, 1 cup icecream
• TOTAL CALORIES: 440!

Stay strong, beautiful, and thin [DOVE]

Stand still goodness :)

Well its night time here and i weighed myself. I was thinking it should be around 188 because i ate the dinner and stuff for this 3rd day on the diet... But it wasn't :) it was still 185 :D I'm ecstatic! Now i cant wait till i do it again in 3 days... i wish i can just keep on doing it over and over but then the skin wont tighten up and everything will be a mess, plus i've noticed that i've been betting light headed and weak so no gym while on diet. So,... on Monday i'll begin the diet again and hopefully i wont add too many pounds till then... Good thing im already writing down in my journal what im going to be eating for the next 3 days 'off' :P
I can't wait to be 175.... 165... 155.... 145!!! and so on :) Hopefully i can get to at least 145lbs with this diet... i know its not going to help me get to my ultimate goal but its a start and i like it :)Here are some of my inspirational thinspo! Enjoy
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?? What ???

So,... I get up this morning, right? and i'm tired because i can home late last night from a Bible discussion and from the diet... But the diet was good... i don't feel all that different, just maybe a little spaced out sometimes. But anyway, i get up and i head for the scale and i was thinking maybe the scale will be good to me this morning and say that i'm at the most 190lbs. But it didn't. It said something else.


I was thrilled to see a number that I've missed for a while... I was 185 lbs again :) Though it is a big number, its really exciting to know that this diet is really working for me. I'm not starving all day, but rather i am eating more healthy and more proportioned meals. And its only the second day!!! I recommend all overweight and obese people to give this diet a try. I don't know if it will work on healthy and ultra skinny people... we'll find out later :)



I feel so good about myself right now that its intoxicating! I haven't felt so good in a long time. I cant wait to do this diet again! To go down to 175 will be amazing :) And invigorating. To show those snobby girls that are skinny from birth that i too can be skinny and pretty... maybe even be more than they can ever be. To tell you a little secret, i dont really have boobs or a butt and i am now ever so thankful to God that i dont. Cuz if i had those curves, i would have a harder time trying to get into those size zero pants in the end :) sigh... well till tomoro, with a thinner me,


<3 [DOVE]

- 2.5 pounds

I woke up this morning and i weighed myself to find that i lost about 2.5lbs! Which is really great because i lost some weight from eating quite a bit of food :P I know its not water weight because i drank like 9 cups of water yesterday! And i went to the gym... But i also heard i wasn't supposed to exercise on this diet, but not sure why... But I'm still really excited!!! :D

Today is Diet Day 2, and so far its been really good... I mean its not like the food is terrible or anything. Plus i don't feel faint at all so i can go to the gym, run/power-walk in a incline for a mile and do some weights... I need to learn to love the gym again :S..

When I'm going to be off my diet, I'm going to add new things to my "Yummy" page... I found some really good low calorie foods that are instant to make :D

<3 DOVE

Sorry

I haven't been myself lately and so many things are just putting me down. College started and its a challenge... Im at 190 today.. which is good but its only because i fasted all day yesterday... I ate this morning but im not planning on eating anything else... i feel soooo full and disgusting... Its a good thing College started... i can be busy with homework, studying, and my mind will be off food...

What i had:

• 12 oz of coffee (coffee, milk, sugar, and a packet of splenda)
• 3 chocolate chip cookies
• 2 Light Laughing cow cheese wedges
• And a few little Pub mix thingies

You might wonder why i was so bummed out... Well, the truth is, its a lot of things... and just a couple days ago i was about to have another melt down when the handsome guy i saw in summer finally came up to the Christian Booth we set up in the campus and realized that he doesn't recognize me at all and introduced himself to me :( Then i started to wonder, why did he wave and smile and stuff when he doesn't know me? Does he think i dont remember him?? UGH... But i guess its okay,... I WILL BE THIN ... and since im part of the Christian group on campus ill see him more and will be able to talk to him and stuff... I hope he'll look past the fat for now... but he's just too handsome to think he would.

Im planning to fast every other day... And once im strong enough, Ill try to fast 2 days at a time... While i fast, i will pray about getting rid of my sin of Gluttony, and all the other problems i have, but mostly about my sin of loving food so much. I need a life without food. I need to live my life, not live to eat!

If anyone wants to fast with me tomoro, please comment that you will and we can do this together. I know im not skinny like most of you here in the Skinny Community but it would be nice to have someone there to encourage you and give you advice throughout the day.

I miss you Ani, i hope you are doing fine,... you are in my prayers.

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Stable 190

Its so nice not having my weight go up and down...
Im finally stablized at 190 :) I know ive been kinda flaky lately but i think im finally alright... Ive been working alot and busy so im glad its all paying off...
I totally notice the difference lol Ill take a pic later today :)

For my reward, im going to the boardwalk in Santa Cruz with the girls :) My really good friends that i can trust and rely on. I cant wait! this is just so awesome!

catch you guys laters!


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Fasting

Im planning to fast all day today...
Oh its going to be tough...
I totally went to robot mode on saturday and sunday and i ate normally :(
SO im back to 193....
ugh a stupid number...
I was thinking earlier how i was at a stable 175lbs earlier this year and it makes me mad that i've gained so much. I feel stupid for eating so much. I feel stupid for not listening to my mom when she said "Thats enough". Its as if my body wants to stay fat. My body is comfortable with the fat. But i dont like it and it wont shed off. I hope i really make it through today. I really need to get back to my nice 190... And of course lower than that. Im sick of being that fat girl in the family, the fat girl in my bible study group, the fat girl in choir, the fat girl in everything... Im sick of being told that i have a pretty face and a pretty voice but nothing else...
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190!

I had a bloody headache this morning, but it was worth it.
The past few days were awful!
But i made it to my first goal -> 190lbs!
Im so happy!!!
At this pace i am sure to hit 170 for the pool party!

Thank you Ani and Fleur For your support :)

I still have many battles to overcome with my brain telling me to eat, but i dont care anymore.
I know what i need to do now to keep away from food.
I need to read a book, say "no" constantly to myself, and think happy thoughts.
Especially the happy thoughts of love and romance :) The books help alot with this area.
You can sit back and dream and really experience how relationships are really meant to be.

I read these books: "Surrender Bay: A Nantucket Love Story" by Denise Hunter and "What my mother doesn't know" by Sonya Sones .... Both are very lovely and would recommend you to read them... I going to start another book today but i dont know which one... I have so many!

Tomoro i will be posting a before and after pics of myself since i've hit my goal and if you check out my goal list, you will see what i did for my reward :P

Stay strong, beautiful, and thin
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