Life of a failure

Ive been busy enough to be out all day and work and trying to study as i still go to college,... but it seems like i am never tired enough, or busy enough, or stressed out enough to NOT eat junk food :( ugh... definitely starting the buckwheat diet tomorrow!!!! ive been stalling at it for the past couple days and even weeks cuz i dont have the money and time to go by the stupid buckwheat but tomoro is definitely a good day to do all that!!! though my dad's birthday is on the 13th, and we are celebrating it on sunday, i am going to just eat salad and fruits or something... so i hope that wont ruin the diet too much... plus taking some vitamins with the buckwheat.... Ive been thinking alot about how im such a failure at this,... that im not strong enough to overcome the desire of food (plus the fact that im lazy)... when will it stop? when will i finally wake up and smell the awful stench of my terrible sin of gluttony to the point where i am going to stop eating???? :(( I need help Well here is some inspiration for today: