187!

I am now 187 pounds! Yey!!!! all my hard work is paying off!!!

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Insanity day 14

I made it! Day 14! i cant believe i have done 2 weeks of this!!! Insanity workout is amazing i've been able to see definition already! my thighs aren't as soft, tummy is lifted, collar bones are more prominent, shoulders are becoming visible! its amazing!!! the Tracy Anderson Metamorphosis workout ontop of that is really great too, haven't been doing the cardio portion but im getting that from insanity! :D

One bad news is that all this muscle workout is making me plateau at 190-193 :(( so im going to try to fast tomoro or do the 1 day detox thing to hype up my system to go down the pounds again. But all in all I'm happy :)

Im going to try to make more of an effort this month not to just lose pounds but to give Mr. Pattinson look-a-like a better picture of who i am and give him the option of maybe date me or like me or something, cuz i need to get this dude out of my head if its going nowhere and move on! :P

Insanity day 6 and 7

I made it! One week on insanity! :D and plus it is day 7 on Tracy Anderson Metamorphosis!!! I am so proud of myself! Day 7 today was easy cuz its a day off of Insanity... so all i did was the muscle workout and the cardio (that i haven't done the last 6 days cuz of insanity) of the Tracy :) I feel so strong! I actually missed doing a crazy insanity workout lol

I texted Mr. Pattinson, and responded :) always nice and gentleman-like :) sigh... he's going to be back in the state next saturday so i have time to look a little better and go see him :D Oh i feel so good to be getting back into shape!!!! Exciting!!!

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Insanity Day 4 and 5

I wanted to quit today... Insanity workout was insane.... but that wasn't it... I've also been coupling it with the Metamorphosis workout with it and i'm sore  all over but that's not it. I felt defeated for some reason... worthless... weak... and idiot.. i didn't know where it came from and i was about to give up during my day 5 insanity workout when finally the video said that it was now time for the final stretch... there was only 5 min left in the video! ... I'm so glad i pushed through! YES!!! .... through its only day 5, i feel like my body is less jiggly lol so that's enlightening :)

As you all know Mr. physics is out and now Mr. Robert Pattinson look-a-like is now back in! .... I feel like i should make more of an effort with mr. Pattinson since i dont see him much and texting him a lot is never good for any guy.... but he is always a gentleman so i'll see him around definitely :P this is great inspiration to keep on the program!

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Insanity day 2 and 3

I just finished the 3rd day of Insanity by Beach Body and oddly i feel really good lol. Sure you struggle through the workout and feel like you aren't keeping up but i tell myself to go at a my speed (cuz i am 190) but still push my limits too. plus i tell my self "this isn't bad, this isn't bad, it's almost over, it's almost over" and then i love it how it makes me sweat! :D

Insanity Day 1 Fit Test

So i'm starting Insanity for the 2nd time, and no i did not do it fully last time :S ... Any way, I say that if i am an obese 190 ish pound lady and i'm doing it, you can do it to! But you must have the will power to push yourself and do your own personal best and excel from there!
Insanity is the only workout that gets my droping sweat in a matter of a couple min and gets my heart going fast. So if you are going to do this with me or starting it soon, go for it!

Other than that Mr Physics is gone off this planet. :( oh well,... and this is one excuse i'm doing this lol its a good inspiration :D
I have gone back to 190 :) and even less cuz my body is more slimmer :) yey!

keeping you posted,
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poop

yesterday and today i feel like poop.
I binged.
But thats not why i feel like poop and that's not why i binged.

Mr Physics didn't want to hang out tuesday... though he said it last week... He mentioned he wont be sitting in the front anymore because of his knee hurting and he wants something to prop it up during class; stupid excuse ... he just should have said "I dont want to be around you anymore" ...

I should have known this was too good to be true.

It took 8 mini bite brownies, 3 pints of Hagen Daz, Cashews and some normal food.
Now i feel like i'm getting over him and now feeling bad that i ate the junk. Not bad that i ate it, i feel bad i ate junk and not stuff my face with good stuff you know? well that's comfort food for you.

Im not searching for pity or remorse. I just wanted to get it off of my chest. I dont have anyone to talk to .... I dont trust my mom and my girl friends are busy with their boyfriends...

I work 4 days straight.... I'm going to try the lemonade diet... i know i'm a failure at keeping my word on that but lets all hope.

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190!

I am sooooo happy!!!!!!!!! :D

I AM 190 LBS!!! :D

Natural Herbs are really helping! and eating 3x a day and very small portions...
Herbs: Cinnamon, Cayenne Pepper, Multivitamin for hair nails and skin, ... some other supplements: Iron, Biotin, Calcium :)

So, for 190 lbs, what will my present be? It works body wrapping again!
I did it when i hit 195 because it was my first 10lbs lost :) It makes my stretch marks look almost invisible and skin feels really smooth and soft :P

I need to buy new pants too cuz the ones i have are ripping at the insides of the pants,... ugh i hate it! they are really comfortable!!!! oh well

Today i want to look fabulous,... i'm going to see Mr. Physics (aka physics partners) tonight at class... going to try to casually invite him to go grab a coffee with me... or something :) I have such confidence!!! :D

enjoy the pics <3

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frustrated

i feel like poop today.... i have been for the past couple days... I feel so stupid to turn to food again for comfort! i hit 192 and what do i do??? i make it skyrocket to 195 :(
Sure i'm stressed from college but that's not it... ever since the sushi date with the physics guy, i started to feel extra insecure and be full of wonder to why he would like someone like me...
I'm kinda tall sure but i am still 60+ pounds overweight.... :( I tried to talk to my friend about it but all she'd say is not to think about it... right, like that's easy to do...

I dont know what to do... should i ask him why he's been so nice and open with me? Should i just wait it out? this is driving me nuts!!!

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