Hey Everyone...

First of all thankyou all who are still following me :)

@Neeska: You are totally right, we fall but we get right back up again :) and its 2011 and its MY time to SHINE!!! Its OUR time dammit!!!! im sooo pumped up :D

@Jane Pansy: Im trying to find friends online, but i think i need to depend on myself for support cuz once those friends are gone, what am i to do? :) I've heard of the ABC diet and think of doing it but i need to do a little preparing for it :D
Oh and i've got a ton of pictures and watch millions of videos :P

Its good to be back on the road to thinness!!!! I've got my first batch of 180 pills and started to take them with a bunch of vitamins (calcium, flax, pills for skin hair nails, etc)... but the diet pills are funny cuz they don't really have anything diet about them... the nutrition states it has Acai, apple vinigar, etc :) all to suppress appetite! And they have been working :D i am now 194 lbs :) But a bad side effect from all these pills is insomnia ... but i hope it goes away once my body is used to them...

I started the LEMONADE DIET today :) im super excited! but i decided to do it Monday through friday every week so i can lose lots of weight this month... Last time i did this, I lost 10lbs in just 5 days and i felt wonderful! plus it helped me shrink my stomach so i didn't eat too much at once any longer... so im excited! hopefully i'll lose 25lbs this month!

Do you want me to post before/after pics when im down 10lbs? 20lbs? or every 30 lbs?

wish me luck :)
{DOVE}

Hate Myself

I dont know what has happened to me ....
I used to be 168 lbs just 2 years ago :(
Now im back up close to 200lbs :((

Depression has been nasty
Trying to take the thoughts of suicide out of my head
its not getting any better

I need to move out of my parent's house
but i got no money to spare

O God help me!

I just bought 360 count of diet pills...
they better work

going to go drink some wine to calm me down

{DOVE}

oh poop

you know how i eat more because of stress? well thanks to that im up at 197 again :((((
I am such a loser :(

oh yeah baby!!!

i want my story to be like this fine lady... she got skinny in the end <3

Sexy mirror picture: i want to do one, but in the future :P

"Fix up, Look sharp," says the fine looking man... it's what i need to do to get one!

Beautiful transformation <3

I want to look like this when im 100 lbs ^^^ what do you think?

SO i got up this morning kinda irritated and nervous.. why? ... well i ate 2 oranges more than i should have yesterday :S but that's okay... cuz i lost 2 more pounds!!!! so i am 184 now!!! :D It feels sooooo goood!!!! once im done with the diet, ill post the diet up on the tabs up above^^^^ and the lemonade diet :) they are both so awesome!

But a few hurdles are coming... 1) my sister's bridal shower today that will be full of good tasting foods and sweets (especially my favorite honey cake :P); 2) my period (i usually gain 5 lbs from water gain :X) and 3) stress from my upcoming organic Chemistry exam can cause a eating spike :S .... sigh... oh geez i hope i can make it!... i have worked too hard to get under 185 and i cant make anything stop me now from being under 180!!!! i hope for the best!

In other news,... i saw my Robert Pattinson - like guy the other day... he's cuter than ever! ... but he's playing hard to get... but i played it right back :P ... i hope ill be in better shape soon to show him how beautiful i am... and that he can't have me ;D to make him want me more! lol ... oh im just babbling nonsense i guess to the people who just started to follow me,... read past post to be filled in! :P

If i can lose weight, you can too... have faith in yourselves my ladies! {DOVE}

oh well :)

This picture really shows me what im striving for and a glimpse of what i can be.

I really like this pic, clean and beautiful and thin.... thats what i want

So in the morning of day 3 i was soooo excited! cuz i was 184.5... but of course stupid me went on an eating rampage!!! :( but all is good i am like 185.5 ish... so i didn't gain anything :) Im doing day 3 all over again so ill have the chance to lose 10 lbs the next 5 days. And hopefully ill be able to fit into my little black dress again! and the rest of my clothes :P I am so happy to find somthing that really works for me and i dont have to starve myself! but i know ill have to train myself to not eat later to get to 100lbs... {DOVE}

day 1 results

so this morning i had to weight myself and even after eating 4 potatoes and 2 cups of 1% buttermilk i still lost 3 pounds :) yey! And today i had to eat 2 cups of fat free cottage cheese and 2 cups butter milk (and cheated by eating a subway white macadamian cookie dough) i am 186! :D so i can't wait to weigh myself tomoro morning!!! So i hope you ladies are doing great as well :) enjoy the pics! {DOVE}

Im back :)

Sorry for the long wait,... its been crazy :S But im back and with a full vengeance to lose weight!!!! though im up to 190 again, i have a diet plan that will help me get to 180.... Its a Buttermilk (aka kefir) diet... and in 7 days you lose 14lbs... especially for overweight ppl like me! and then i plan on doing the lemonade diet ! i love the lemonade diet!!!! but its really hard to do :S... but you lose like 2 lbs a day! 10 days = 20lbs!!... i only did it for 5 and i lost10! so my dear ladies, i hope you enjoy the pics and see me shrink soon :) {DOVE}