Oh this is just hilarious!

Okay, may be its not that funny but... My mom has noticed that i have gained about 15 pounds in the last 3 months and since i just ended my summer class, she goes and says to me "we are going to fast tomoro, sunday, monday... " lol this is sooo funny!
She and my sis always look down upon me when i try to do that stuff and now she's all like "lets do it together"
Well that is just super! :D Now i have a good reason to be not eating for a very long time! yep yep! i want to try doing it for a week and then take a break (even if i dont want to) and the do in again for another week... Cuz i heard you need to do that so you won't get stuck in a plateau in your weight loss :)
I am super happy!!!

OH and my computer totally broke down :( so now i have to find my thinspo pics all over again :( oh well

[DOVE]

Not happy

Im not happy about how i eat
Im not happy about the way i look
My body wont lose any weight
Even exercise made me gain weight!
Im tired of having to eat right and gain pounds
Im tired of having to have a buddy to enjoy gym
I need a new plan
I need a new brain!
I cant wait till summer college is over
Just one more week i tell myself
After that, im going to fast
Not eat any food
I dont care what my family says
This hunger i have is wrong, WRONG!
Its a ugly sin, sin against God
Id rather eat than read the bible
Id rather eat than enjoy my family and friends
Food is my God right now, and its not right.
Glutony is bad, really bad, its terrible
So why can i not stop???
I need help
I need prayer

[DoVE]

Nominated :D

Fleur from the blog "Im gonna to be Thinderella" has nominated me for this award:

Im really happy and very grateful to be nominated by such a great blogger herself :) So now this means i have to list my 5 likes and dislikes, so here it goes!

Likes:

1. Family/Friends: they are the ones that keep my life interesting and help me learn more about myself. Through thick and thin, good days and bad, i know they will always be there.
2. Collecting: I love collecting old pennies :) Just thinking of what it was like back in 1963 and so on just makes me think how far this country has come. I love collecting Books :P good or bad i love how they sit in my book shelf.
   
3. Owls! : I don't know why but I'm very fond of them :) They are mysterious night creatures and very beautiful. And i probably like them because they are always referred to as "wisdom" and "knowledge" and i also want to be smart.
4. Books: Other than collecting them, i love reading them as well. It gives me a chance to unwind and dream more easily and gets me through the day.
5. Writing: Its a way i can express myself and no one will know the difference between the truth and the lie :P And i love it how you can write your own happy ending <3

Dislikes:

1. Cold Watermelon: I just cant eat it... tastes like cold water... the only way i can eat watermelon is when its at room temperature... nice and sweet and enjoyable :)
2. Stuck up people: I just want to throw a shoe at them or somehow show that they aren't the center of the world! But i always remember that they will one day grow old, fat, and lazy... and ill be aging beautifully, thin, and rich :)
3. Summer: Though i live in one of the most hottest and sunniest places in the USA, i just cant stand it, i love winter more. But it may be just because im still quite big, so ill get back to you on this :X
4. College: I know everyone says this, but i used to like it at one point. I mean im almost done, but i just have such hard classes and no fun at all. I cant wait till its all over!
5. Spiders: Ew,... they are all over the berries, on fruit trees, and everywhere in my garden. I just think they want to jump at me :S

NOMINEES
Ani : "my mind's is about to fall
Sarah: "Creating the me I've always wanted to be"
Adaline: "Vanishing Point"
Jennifer: "Thin means..."
James Leanne: "Purely Empty"
(Sorry, i dont know how to use links yet)

I want to thank all of my followers for giving me such great advice and really encouraging me to move forward. I've really opened my eyes to who I am, who I want to become, and how fat i REALLY am lol... Love you all very much,

Stay strong, beautiful, and thin,
[DOVE]

185

Back to 185 again :) and feels really good...

Its different though, i actually see the results of going to the gym Last time i was 185, it only said it on the scale and now i can actually see it :) I am happy :) Cuz that means ill be more successful for my 175 goal :) I only have 5 lbs to get to my major reward goal and i cant wait!

Me and a friend of mine were thinking of getting icecream and i thought that was a great idea,but now that i really think about it, it could ruin everything.... So maybe ill just throw out my extra clothes that are "big" and only keep the fitting ones :)

Stay strong, beautiful, and thin

[DOVE]

Happiness

Well i got my act together again... and i started to go to the gym regularly... like EVERY day i would go down an burn at least 600 cals :)
Today i ate moderatley and I burned 1000cals in the gym :D
Im really happy, it seems like im getting toned and more control over my food.
This journey is only the beggining and i know its not going to get easier.
But i thank all my followers for their support so far, and i hope for the best for them as well :)

[DOVE]

well?

Hey I'm back for a post!
Well, i really don't know what to say...
I have 2 1/2 weeks left for summer class and I'm struggling to keep my grade as an A.
I have also started to go to the gym every day.. but it not seeming to change my weight.
Its weird, I'm eating healthier and i try to eat a little less, yet there is no change...
I'm very disappointed, all my hard work isn't paying off...
I can't wait till my summer class is all done.. Ill finally be free to do anything :)
ANYTHING!!!! well at least for the 3 weeks i have off before fall semester....
I want to fast as much as i can during those days....
Ill sleep, swim, go to the gym to workout, go to the sauna at the gym, clean my room thoroughly, read my books, take walks at the near by oak trees, run in the morning :)
Oh i cant wait!!!
But i know all this stress from college is causing me to eat,...
I want something to munch on, i want something cold and sweet, i want the taste of meat!
But i refrain myself as much as i can... I durn off at least 500 cals at the gym anyway ....

Stay strong, beautiful, and thin,
[DOVE]

187

So im back to 187,... and i think thats alright.... it waved a bit from 186
I got 3 weeks to go down to 175 ... i hope ill make it