Death to me

Sorry for not writing for so long... life has been miserable.....
I started to gain weight for no reason at all! ... i ate healthy, i exercised, i did everything right and yet my stupid body wont accept it!
Among other things,... my 2 jobs relentlessly put me to work, had college, got into a car accident, my dad got into a car accident, my mother's aunt stayed with us, i had to move out of my room for my aunt and had to sleep on a stupid couch for 3 weeks, gotten yelled at for how stupid i am and that i dont know how to do anything around the house, blah blah blah

I think i deserve a break and a piece of cake.... what the hell, right? ... my body loves the number 200 :'( ... too much stress

sorry my lovely ladies... i hope i do better this year :(

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Progress

Well, I've been on the lemonade diet for like 3 days and there is progess... well til i ate... but i was surprised that i was able to contain myself and only go for simple good food... nothing out of a bag or box or processed :) and i think it'll do me some good cuz i run 5 mi a day now!!!

from 200
I am now 191 :)

i hope i'll go far

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SOOOOOO SOOOORRRRYYYYY!!!!

So Sorry for not writting much this past few months... i've been super busy!!!

Update:
NO, i did not become thin for my sis's wedding... i lost a good 20 lbs in the beggining and then my body just stopped and gained some of it back :S but at least i fit into the dress right? lol

WEll, now that i'm back.. i need to tell you what i'm doing right?
I got back up to 200 lbs :S but i've been losing it ... right now im about 194
I started to go to the gym everyday and i make myself run at least 5 miles and to do a workout at home...
The workout im using right now is Metamorphosis by Tracy Anderson and i really like it... you feel the burn! and in 5 min or less you will start sweating lol

Though i've only lost like 6 lbs, i see a difference.... my stomach is firm, skin feels good, and my hunger is in check :)

Im on the Lemonade diet right now... and i absolutely love it!... last time i did this, i only did it for 5 days and i literally lost 10lbs and i had a small meal every day of it; of course i did major exercise with it too... THis time i am doing it for 10 days so i can go back to my previous weight of 2 years ago, 175lbs... i hope for 180 but 175 is a good one too

You probably have heard of this diet before and lots of ppl have different recipies... this one is mine:

100ml of lemon juice (fresh squeezed)
+ 100ml Grade B maple syrup
-> into a empty 2 liter bottle
+ 1/4 teaspoon of Cayenne pepper or to taste
... fill the rest of the bottle with water

easy isn't it? :D

ill keep you all updated :)

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Good food = Bad diet

So, the past few weeks i was trying to just eat very good healthy food... no junk, soda, etc... But it didn't help at all :S there are a lot of girls who are like "just eat healthy and it will slim you down" yeah right... sure... load of bullocks that is... but i guess they only did fruits and vegetables or something... but i dont know... i didn't like it cuz i didn't feel like i was dieting you know? So i was confused to how to do it and it just ruined my weight... i literally gained the 7 lbs i lost :(

But its alright... i got it covered... ill be doing the 3 day diet tomorrow and then ill follow that with the Lemonade diet after it for 5 days... and ill see if i loose 20 lbs that way... im obese so i should lose that much weight (yes i know most of it will be water weight)

I also ordered this new exercise package... its called Metamorphosis by Tracy Anderson.... and it should help me start working out cuz its only like 30 min each tape and thats perfect cuz i dont like to workout that much right now... the extra weight on me makes it really hard... and it hurts to jump a lot :S ... but ill be getting it this coming Tuesday :)

I heard only one comment as to how often i should post picks to be every 30lbs... so thats what ill do :)

good luck everyone
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Hey Everyone...

First of all thankyou all who are still following me :)

@Neeska: You are totally right, we fall but we get right back up again :) and its 2011 and its MY time to SHINE!!! Its OUR time dammit!!!! im sooo pumped up :D

@Jane Pansy: Im trying to find friends online, but i think i need to depend on myself for support cuz once those friends are gone, what am i to do? :) I've heard of the ABC diet and think of doing it but i need to do a little preparing for it :D
Oh and i've got a ton of pictures and watch millions of videos :P

Its good to be back on the road to thinness!!!! I've got my first batch of 180 pills and started to take them with a bunch of vitamins (calcium, flax, pills for skin hair nails, etc)... but the diet pills are funny cuz they don't really have anything diet about them... the nutrition states it has Acai, apple vinigar, etc :) all to suppress appetite! And they have been working :D i am now 194 lbs :) But a bad side effect from all these pills is insomnia ... but i hope it goes away once my body is used to them...

I started the LEMONADE DIET today :) im super excited! but i decided to do it Monday through friday every week so i can lose lots of weight this month... Last time i did this, I lost 10lbs in just 5 days and i felt wonderful! plus it helped me shrink my stomach so i didn't eat too much at once any longer... so im excited! hopefully i'll lose 25lbs this month!

Do you want me to post before/after pics when im down 10lbs? 20lbs? or every 30 lbs?

wish me luck :)
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Hate Myself

I dont know what has happened to me ....
I used to be 168 lbs just 2 years ago :(
Now im back up close to 200lbs :((

Depression has been nasty
Trying to take the thoughts of suicide out of my head
its not getting any better

I need to move out of my parent's house
but i got no money to spare

O God help me!

I just bought 360 count of diet pills...
they better work

going to go drink some wine to calm me down

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oh poop

you know how i eat more because of stress? well thanks to that im up at 197 again :((((
I am such a loser :(